I’m having trouble writing this, because words cannot even express how we are feeling. We knew we wanted kids, and we have been “trying” since our Honeymoon, in September. My cycles had been super wonky and irregular since stopping my birth control, so a 41 day cycle didn’t seem that weird, but in the back of my head I was diagnosing myself with all sorts of things. I thought something was wrong with me. It was New Years Day, I was sick with a horrible cold and a nasty hangover, just getting in the shower at 4pm, when I decided I’d take a pregnancy test.
I had always envisioned presenting Justin with an adorable personalized onesie, or maybe a tiny wrapped box holding the positive test, to announce to him he was going to be a daddy. But, as soon as I saw those that PLUS sign show up in a matter of only 30 seconds, I immediately took another test (a different kind) which displayed two confident lines. I slightly panicked, ran down the stairs and handed the two tests to my closed-eyed husband as a surprise. He opened his eyes and said, “ARE YOU SERIOUS?” as a few tears leaked out. I said, in my squeaky, barely-there, sick voice, “I THINK SO!” We hugged so tightly and cried. Happy New Year!
I called my doctor’s office the next day, and scheduled my 8 week appointment for the 15th. And now we wait.
Am I ready for this? Will I be a good mom? Justin is going to be the cutest dad, even if he’s never actually held a baby before. Dear God, please give us a healthy baby. And please have beautiful dark hair like Mommy & Daddy. 😉
Panic. Stress. Sleeplessness. SO MUCH Excitement. And this is only the beginning!