Last Thursday, I met my mom at the Oak Hills Cemetery where the Angel statue is that I talked about in this post. The statue is so beautiful, and I know I will be visiting often. I am thinking about having a brick engraved and placed around the statue. It's relatively inexpensive, and I think… Continue reading The Angel Statue & Test Results
Today marks one week since we learned that we lost our second baby. ...the baby we we thought for sure was our rainbow baby. Tomorrow I'll be one week post-op. ...the second time in which our baby's remains were scraped from inside my uterus. How are we feeling? Emotionally - Justin and I are absolutely… Continue reading How we’re feeling/One week update
October 2, 2018 As a woman who is typically great with words, I seem to be speechless right now. There are no words which accurately describe the whirlwind of the last 48 hours. To say that we feel heartbroken, helpless, and devastated, would be an understatement. I never imagined that this would actually happen again,… Continue reading How I’m feeling – D&C Day… again.
When I began writing this post, I again, did not anticipate it turning into another nightmare. It couldn’t. I was excited. Terrified, but excited. The odds of two back-to-back miscarriages were slim. We knew it was possible, but surely it couldn’t happen again. The odds were against us. This was our rainbow baby. We were… Continue reading A Second Loss
I've started and deleted this post at least ten times. Somehow, it's just seems impossible to come up with the right words. Yesterday was the day I have been dreading: my due date. Now that August 29th has come and gone, in some sick way, I almost feel relieved. That day has been weighing so… Continue reading The One That’s Hard to Write
I am a loyal Colleen Hoover follower, and did not even look at the book description when I purchased and started reading her latest book, All Your Perfects. Holy Cow, I could not put it down, and finished it in three days. The story unfolds by alternating past and present tenses. In the past, we learn… Continue reading Loving Lately, Vol. 7
We've all heard the saying, "grief comes in waves." While I do believe that to be true, I certainly didn't expect it to hit me at the most random times. Say, in the middle of a CycleBar class. That's exactly what happened to me Saturday morning. I woke up feeling great, ate a fulfilling breakfast,… Continue reading Grief Comes in Waves