I woke up in a funk today Which I fully expected My mind was back in that stupid room A heartbeat not detected. No blood supply, no fetal growth Our worst fear had come true All hope lost; Our dreams were shattered "There was nothing you could do." One year ago, our lives… Continue reading January 30
Category: Pregnancy loss
Attitude of Gratitude
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! Look, I'm not going to lie. This year, being thankful feels tough. Many days I wake up feeling like the world is against me, and since nothing has gone my way, that it never will. I felt like it was especially important for me to write this, because it forced me to… Continue reading Attitude of Gratitude
Halloween Heaviness
It’s not even 11:00 am, and I find myself needing to swear off social media for the day. During a quick scroll, I counted five pregnancy announcements. FIVE. Cute fall and Halloween themed photos, excitedly announcing “our little pumpkin” arriving in May. Now, don’t get me wrong. I am friends with these people, and I’m… Continue reading Halloween Heaviness
4 Changes I Am Making
Since our second loss, I have felt that it's time to make some changes for the benefit of my health and well-being. Going to Church/Becoming More Spiritual I grew up Catholic, and went to Catholic schools from kindergarten through twelfth grade, so faith was a regular part of my life -- whether I wanted it… Continue reading 4 Changes I Am Making
The Angel Statue & Test Results
Last Thursday, I met my mom at the Oak Hills Cemetery where the Angel statue is that I talked about in this post. The statue is so beautiful, and I know I will be visiting often. I am thinking about having a brick engraved and placed around the statue. It's relatively inexpensive, and I think… Continue reading The Angel Statue & Test Results
How we’re feeling/One week update
Today marks one week since we learned that we lost our second baby. ...the baby we we thought for sure was our rainbow baby. Tomorrow I'll be one week post-op. ...the second time in which our baby's remains were scraped from inside my uterus. How are we feeling? Emotionally - Justin and I are absolutely… Continue reading How we’re feeling/One week update
How I’m feeling – D&C Day… again.
October 2, 2018 As a woman who is typically great with words, I seem to be speechless right now. There are no words which accurately describe the whirlwind of the last 48 hours. To say that we feel heartbroken, helpless, and devastated, would be an understatement. I never imagined that this would actually happen again,… Continue reading How I’m feeling – D&C Day… again.
A Second Loss
When I began writing this post, I again, did not anticipate it turning into another nightmare. It couldn’t. I was excited. Terrified, but excited. The odds of two back-to-back miscarriages were slim. We knew it was possible, but surely it couldn’t happen again. The odds were against us. This was our rainbow baby. We were… Continue reading A Second Loss
The One That’s Hard to Write
I've started and deleted this post at least ten times. Somehow, it's just seems impossible to come up with the right words. Yesterday was the day I have been dreading: my due date. Now that August 29th has come and gone, in some sick way, I almost feel relieved. That day has been weighing so… Continue reading The One That’s Hard to Write
Loving Lately, Vol. 7
I am a loyal Colleen Hoover follower, and did not even look at the book description when I purchased and started reading her latest book, All Your Perfects. Holy Cow, I could not put it down, and finished it in three days. The story unfolds by alternating past and present tenses. In the past, we learn… Continue reading Loving Lately, Vol. 7
