We've all heard the saying, "grief comes in waves." While I do believe that to be true, I certainly didn't expect it to hit me at the most random times. Say, in the middle of a CycleBar class. That's exactly what happened to me Saturday morning. I woke up feeling great, ate a fulfilling breakfast,… Continue reading Grief Comes in Waves
A couple of things I'm loving lately - media edition! I will do a separate post on products/foods/tangible things, but here are some things I'm enjoying reading, watching, and listening to! 1. FAV READ If you are a fan of the TV show, This is Us, you MUST read This is Me by Chrissy Metz,… Continue reading Loving Lately, Vol. 3
I've been absent from the blog the past couple weeks, and I apologize. I am still grieving and learning to cope with the ways my life has changed. Right now I have moments when I'm okay...and moments when I'm not okay. And honestly, it's probably going to be this way for a while. You know… Continue reading Okay
Seriously, it has been half a year already?! Justin & I were married on September 8th, 2017. I know I'm biased, but it was the most perfect day. The weather was beautiful, the venue was a scene from my dreams, and my prince charming was teary-eyed and waiting for me at the end of the… Continue reading 6 Months of Marriage
If our little bean had stuck around, I would be 14 weeks and 2 days pregnant today. Instead, I am 10 days Post-D&C. How am I feeling? The short answer is, not like myself. I am struggling with body image, big time. I have some extra lbs. of "baby weight," in combination with the carb-heavy… Continue reading Recovering.
*Warning: This post contains graphic content.* Tuesday, February 20th, 2018. We arrived at the hospital at 6:30 am, as requested, and headed up the elevator to the second floor: Maternity & Women's Services. Yes, Cruel. The first desk was closed, but someone spoke to me through the intercom asking my name and why I'm here. I… Continue reading D&C Day
Want to know what it feels like to get kicked when you're down? We had our follow-up appointment this morning following the drug-induced miscarriage. We were really hoping to go in today and get news that everything was clear...not the case. As it turns out, I've passed the baby, but none of the sac, which is still… Continue reading Follow-Up
Justin and I go back to the doctor on Wednesday, Valentine's Day. It was originally scheduled as our 12 Week appointment, and the day we would have announced our pregnancy publicly. As you know, things didn't work out as we planned, and now the appointment is serving as my miscarriage follow-up. I'm not sure if they'll… Continue reading What’s Next
Please understand when we skip your baby shower. Or when we don't reply to snap chats of your beautiful, growing baby belly, or stack of baby books. This doesn't mean we aren't happy for you, because we absolutely are. We were just as excited and planning all of these same things. However, our happy ending… Continue reading Grieving.
1 in 4. I am 1 in 4. 1 in 4 women will miscarry their pregnancy. These odds are far too common, yet it's something women rarely speak of. Sure, the odds are 25%, but you never expect that it will happen to YOU. The "standard" is to wait until the second trimester before you announce… Continue reading Miscarriage.