Life, Pregnancy loss

Loving Lately, Vol. 3

A couple of things I’m loving lately – media edition! I will do a separate post on products/foods/tangible things, but here are some things I’m enjoying reading, watching, and listening to!


If you are a fan of the TV show, This is Us, you MUST read This is Me by Chrissy Metz, the woman who plays Kate on the show.  Not only do I think it is extremely well written, but I think I read it at precisely the right time in my life.  I’ve been feeling so down about myself since the miscarriage, there were some pretty dark thoughts going on in my head: lots of self-doubt, and thoughts relating to my worthiness.  This book is extremely uplifting, and helps us to embrace our flaws, as that is what makes us unique. There is actually a paragraph that I sent to my husband as I was reading, floored that it was so in-tune with what I wrote about on Friday.

There aren’t many times where you actually sit in that good space of being excited about where you’ve come from and what you’ve accomplished.  Because in Hollywood, in any career really, and in life, it’s always the next thing, and the next thing.  Instead, recognize the hard work you have done, and give yourself a pat on the back for a minute.

This book reminded me to embrace who I am, and all that I have been through, both good and bad.  Nobody is perfect, except for maybe Jack Pearson, so don’t dwell on anything for too long. You wouldn’t want to miss out on your next big break.


The very first time I heard “Meant to Be” by Bebe Rexha (feat. Florida Georgia Line) on the radio, I started crying. The lyrics spoke directly to my heart, that “If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.”  The song, to me, is a gentle reminder that life happens as it is supposed to, and sometimes we don’t understand why.  I think I’ve listened to it a million or so times since that first day, and each time I cry a little less, and smile a little more.  Again, this goes back to my post from Friday, but I am slowly learning to be patient and let what’s meant to be, be.


If you don’t know who Shawn Johnson is, you must’ve been living under a rock during the 2008 Olympic Games.  She is a world-renowned USA gymnast, earning 1 Gold & 3 Silver medals during the 2008 Games. She and her husband, Andrew East, have a YouTube channel which I stumbled upon in January, when I was looking for strength during my miscarriage.  This video was the first one I watched, though I remember watching clips of it after it was featured on Good Morning America late last year.  To recap, Shawn & Andrew found themselves unexpectedly pregnant, but had a miscarriage only hours after their celebration.  They began filming separately, as they thought they were shooting the news of their healthy pregnancy.  Similarly, I began blogging about what I thought was my healthy pregnancy.

While every situation is, of course, different, this video is a pretty accurate adaptation of what it is like to go through a miscarriage.  Justin and I watched it together and sobbed throughout the whole thing. You go from such a high, filled with excitement, to raw, emotional heartbreak.  Seeing how open they were about sharing their story was  reassurance that I knew I had to share mine as well.  There is something comforting about knowing you are not alone, because this happens to 1 in every 4 women, and yes, even celebrities.

Since then, I’ve fallen in love with their YouTube channel, (and their adorable personalities!) and watch their videos frequently.  A definite fav!


What are you currently reading, watching, or listening to? Leave a comment below, I’d love to check it out!

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